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I have lived on the lip of insanity, Wanting to know reason, Knocking on a door. It opens.
I have been knocking from the inside!
Taken from The Illuminated Rumi
My life has been a long battle of defiance. It started at an early age, after being forced to tell a lie for the good of my community. All that I have done since that time has been an act of rebellion against the hypocrisy I saw in my race, my culture, my religion, my family, and my country. It wasn't until only recently that I became so exhausted from my searching for that Elusive Truth, that I decided to give up the search, and when I did... It happened!
It wasn't an Explosion or burst of Glorious Light... more just a letting go, out of weariness, of the bits of Truth I had collected and stored within this vessel called Me. Like the hot air escaping from the stem of a balloon when your fingers grow numb from holding it, I watched as all of the bits of Truth I had collected, fell back into their proper place... and felt myself an empty vessel, afloat at last, on the Sea of Truth I had been searching for.
To put it more simply, I finally came to the realization that all of my efforts to improve the Spiritual Understandings of others, were nothing more than a cover up to hide my own lack of understanding... and the bits of Knowledge I had collected and stored within myself, that I thought somehow gave me the authority to lead others, were nothing more than droplets from the Universal Truth available to all men. It wasn't until I was ready to look within myself, that I realized my mission in this Life is not to help others find themselves... but to find myself instead.
That doesn't mean that I have turned my back on the Religion I was raised in. I believe that Religious ritual can be a valuable vehicle for transporting us to higher levels of awareness, however... Religion in itself is not the Truth... it is only a vehicle by which we can find the Truth within ourselves... and in so doing, pave the way for others to follow.
No ship can hold an Ocean, Nor star contain the Sky, So who am I to understand, The mind of GOD on High?
Universal Knowledge is available to all who seek it... but it is not something man can possess and no man will ever understand it completely. It is only a tool for us to use in living out the Life we have been given. I believe that the one called Buddha possessed a great deal of this Knowledge, as did other great thinkers, including the one called Jesus. It is not their teachings however that I follow... but the way in which they chose to live their daily lives… for the true message of any Teacher is not their words... but how well they practice what they teach.
Wayne Dale Matthysse
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RETURN TO WAYNE DALE MATTHYSSE
THE EXPLANATION
This came recently in an e-mail from a close friend and faithful supporter:
"Then... a recent e-mail you sent out came... and SHOCK! I just about passed out dead on the floor... there was a photo of Wayne in WHITE CLOTHING!"
and so, for those who are interested, here is my response. |
